We live our lives and in our minds we are who we are. However, in the eyes of the society we are assigned to the statuses that provide us with certain roles to act out.Â Most of the time these roles interact with each other, they merge, clash, put strain one on another, and support one another. It is not that rare that one role helps the other evolve and grow.
I am ascribed a status of a child. Within this status, my role is to be a son to my mother and father. Even though I am a grown up person, I will always remain a child to my mother, and I will always be my parent’s son. This role was given to me from the moment I was born and I will have it until my death. I have achieved status of sergeant; the role that comes with this status is the role of protector. I have to protect and serve my country. I have to put the whole nation in front of my basic needs. I have master status is of a human being, I play a role of a person with basic instincts and needs. I have basic instinct to protect myself as I have a need to be loved and a need for achievement.
My choice to enlist in the army and go to war had put a strain on my relationship with my parents for a while. As in their eyes, my role of a son was in a threatened by my newly received role of a soldier. However, they accepted my choice and our relationships have become much better, this was not a long-term effect.
The roles of a soldier definitely clash in a bad way with my role as an individual. I am a human being and I have instincts to protect myself, and war zone is definitely not the place where you can do it very well, on the contrary, sometimes you can faith life or death situations where you do not have a say in the outcome. Oftentimes you have to put yourself on the line of fire yourself, disregarding all your instincts, to protect your country and your people.
I believe that in the future the role of the protector and soldier would be a tough one to deal with. Leaving to the war zone was difficult and scary, but as I have heard, coming back is harder. It is completely different life here, you have to be on guard all the time, and you never know when you will find oneself in combat. You can lose your friend, a person you just had a good laugh with, in a split second.Â Things that happen here, no army training can prepare you to.Â Experience that you receive here, at war, scars you, and scars you bad. Sometimes you can just hide it under a t-shirt and go to live your life pretending it never existed. Although, sometimes scarring can be so severe that not even your friends and family can recognize you afterwards.Â This is the psychological scarring I am talking about here. It is hard to say how well I will adapt to living a civilian life, but one thing I know for sure, the role as a soldier will definitely be hard one to exit.
To sum up, all these roles make our lives difficult and at the same time interesting. They shape our strengths and weaknesses, the roles that we exit help us with our future roles or, on the contrary, cause trouble in acquiring them easily.